I have started reflecting upon the past year and this entire experience. All of the things I have seen, all of the amazing women I have met, all of the things that I have done. One of the things that strikes me the most is how different I feel right now from the person I was when I accepted this job last April.
I have become a "yes" person. Before this, I definitely was not adventurous, brave, or independent. I could hardly call to order a pizza for myself. My Sisters constantly made fun of me because I always wanted them to go with me to run errands, eat, whatever so I didnt have to go alone. I have done things this year I would never have thought possible, and I really have Alpha Xi Delta to thank for it.
It really struck me that this change had occured when I was in San Francisco a couple of weeks ago. I had never been there before and I was really excited. I knew that I was about to have a very busy couple of days full of meetings and I was already planning things out mentally when my plane landed. When the Sister picked me up, she started telling me all about San Francisco. She told me about Lombard Street, which is the "crookedest street in the world." She asked me if I wanted to try to find it. Before this job, I probably would have said no. We didnt know where it was, where to park, I had meetings to get to... but instead, I said yes. After stopping and walking up and down Lombard Street and taking pictures, we went to see the Golden Gate Bridge. She asked if I wanted to stop and take pictures, and again, I said yes. It was probably one of the most exciting things I have seen all year.
This may not seem like a big deal, but to me, it is. It is just another reason why I know that I needed this experience. A year ago, I was so scared. I had no idea what accepting this job meant for me. Could I handle the travel? Would I get homesick? How would it affect my relationship with Ross? But in saying yes to this job, I took a chance. I trusted that it would be ok.
Now as I am starting to see life beyond this job, I am also saying yes to the Lord and where He is leading me. I have no idea where I am going to end up or what I am going to be doing, but I know that He has a plan for me that is better than any I can make up myself. So today, I am saying yes to His plan, as well.
Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord. Psalm 27:14
